Update on life.

It has been a fulfilling week. I get impatient at times as Adam searches for work.  He has been searching long and hard, and still nothing is panning out for him.  The thought is now that maybe a trip to Saudi is necessary and see if he can find work there.

I am now in my third week on WW and so far it is going well.  I have been following the program and its not to bad. The first week out, we actually ate out twice and I still lost weight.  At the weigh in for week 2, I was down 9 pounds.  I have been diligently tracking my meals and following the advise I am learning in our meetings. The challenge of building meals around vegetables has been very enlightening.  It took a lot of thought, but now it is kind of fun to do, and find ways to cut down on meats and up the vegetable intake.
Also regarding WW, I know I have to start incorporating exercise into this program.  Geez, I feel so lazy but I really dislike exercises. I guess thats not exactly true either, I just dont have a lot of faith in it.  Yes, I hate getting all sweating and gross, but more than that, I dislike that I cant seem to shed the thought that its all a bunch of bunk.  In the past, I have started programs and followed them and had no success.  I mean success in the sense of loosing any weight, or actually feeling better. Most of the time, I hate going, and I feel worse afterwards.  I know everyone says that shouldnt happen and that it will change, but so far nothing like that has ever occurred for me.   But with that said, I know I still have to start a program.  I am also hesitant because I fear it will stop my weight loss,, or hinder the success I am having with loosing weight, that will seriously depress me or push me over the edge.

Update of 52 weekly adventures.

1.  Bought beautiful Gerber Daisy Bouquet.
2. Minnesota History Center.

Week 3: Minneaspolis Institute of Arts.
I saw in the paper that there was an exhibit of the Terra Cotta Warriors and it was leaving Minnesota soon, so that became the event of the week.  Debbie, Adam and I went and made a nice day of it.  The exhibit was so amazing, and the tour guide presented a lot interesting information.  The discover of the warriors was in 1974, and the excavation has been amazing.  The museum was very large and we were not able to see all of it, but the exhibit we wanted was that on China and we saw some fabulous pieces.

I have no plans for next weeks adventure but it is fun looking forward to something. 

I can not say that I am necessarily feeling upbeat or happy, but no where near as sad as before, and I am at least working towards positive goals.  Not sure where this will take me but inshallah will either help ease my heart, or at least give it something to focus and lessen the pain.

Will come back and post some pictures of our outing to the Art Institute.

News In January

Wow, I have been busy.  Lots of activity going on, and plans for 2013.  This year I am making three resolutions.

1.  Weight Watchers
2. 52 Weeks of Fun Activities
3. Praying more consistently

I joined Weight Watchers on January 3rd. I was so nervous and anxious to start, and with the holidays etc, it took a few days to get sorted out.  I have now been on their great program for about 9 days, and am amazed at how easy it is.  The first few days since NYE were hard because I put myself though a detox process.  Getting off sugar was the toughest.  I felt achy and sick for a few days. I googled it and appeared to be the symptoms of sugar detox. Those days were not fun, but I am now doing much better. Although I do have the occasional craving for candy. The first week I have lost 5.4 pounds. There is no hunger pains, or real feeling of deprivation because with WW, you CAN have just about everything you want. Its all a matter of what YOU decide.  I feel very in control with this program, instead of the program being in control of me.  I feel hopeful that this time I may see a true success.

52 Weeks of Fun Activities is my second resolution.  I seem to have fallen into a rut. I attribute most of it to the sadness our family has been put through for the past two years, but enough is enough. So I came up with the idea of 52 Weekly activities.  There is no real rules or anything, its just a matter of find something new to do or to do something special for myself. To put myself and my needs on the list of things to get done. More importantly to fill the wallowing in depression time with something positive.

Praying more consistently is the most important resolution of them all.  As a Muslim I have slacked on my responsibilities due to sadness and heartache but need to remedy this.  Inshallah I can ease my heart and grow stronger in Islam and closer to Allah.  I thank him daily for the wonderful life I have and pray that the issue with be resolved as he deems.  I leave it to him, and know he will bless me with the proper outcome.