I wanted to take a moment and send a pic of my new shoes from Macy's.  They are so unique and will be a great addition to my fantastic shoe collection.  Baba knows my love for shoes and refers to me as Emelda Marcos.  They are snazzy and I am looking forward to an event to wear them.

Tomorrow is New Years Eve and so far we have no real plans. The kids might decide something at the last minute but for now no plans.  Today we had a big dinner with all the kids. Made turkey and all the fixings. Kids gave Baba a Jawbone UP for his gift today. It was a belated birthday gift, he was in Saudi when it was his birthday. I am sure he will enjoy his gift and have many hours of fun competing with the kids. 

I am looking forward to Tuesday as I am going to be signing up for Weight Watchers program.  I received a free registration coupon and have decided this is something I will work on achieving this year.  I have been spending quite a bit of time thinking about what I want to accomplish this year.  I finally am feeling like myself again, but need to broaden my horizons and continue to grow in positive ways.   I did think of one more element that I intend to include in my life this coming year 2013.  I make the commitment to myself that this year, each and every week I will try something new.  It can be something simple, easy or daring and adventurous but must be new.  I will keep a running list of how this is going in my blog.  The prospect of this is actually a bit exciting and I am looking forward to it. After the hard two years we have recently had, its so great to be looking forward to healthy, positive experiences in my life.

Beginning of my bucket list.

One of the reasons I started this blog is to organize my own mind, wants and needs.  I have a few ideas bouncing around but have got a few items to add to my bucket list. This is just the beginning, but will continue to add items as they come to me.

                                                    BUCKET LIST

• Read War and Peace
• Learn Kava Fighting

Not much of a list yet, but will continue to work on it.  This coming Monday I am going to sign up for Weight Watchers.  Another long struggle but hoping this will give me the support and possible friendship I am missing.  Speaking of friends, I did contact the girls from bookclub and hope we can start that up again.

Parenthood

Up early this morning, have CEU to do for licensing and of course can not remember my passwords and log in. Have to go dig that up  so in the name of all good procrastinators--- I came here to write a bit. The CEU's will get done today though, inshallah! Unless of course my desire to hit Macy's wins out.  Yesterday wanted to go but my friend Debbie, was busy with family. Maybe she will go today?  I am curious to go through the clearance after xmas racks, and to pick up a pair of shoes I saw last time I was there. I love shoes!!!  The newest ones I am crazy about are Steve Maddon flats that are covered with crystals. So pretty. I saw them before at Mall of America and did not  get them and now is my chance.

The title of this post is Parenthood. I love being a parent but it is so difficult at times. My 3rd son is in his last quarter on undergraduate and he also suffers from genetic procrastination. He inherited it from me!!! Although he is almost finished with his undergraduate, he has a very important standardized exam coming up, and he is having a hard time sticking to his studying schedule.  The exam was a very expensive proposition for our family, and he assured us he would be 100% committed. Why is it that kids are always 100% committed, until the time comes to actually put in the work.  So with that being said, you can image the row around here last night when he had yet another thing he was committed to and wanting to push studying back yet again.  He was so upset and angry, but how can we as parents get them to realize the importance of some things.  I know when the exam is over and he has done well that he will be so happy and proud of himself.  Never thinking that the push from parents might just have assisted somewhat.  Ugh, its so difficult at times.  I suppose its my fault because I spoil them so much and hate when they are upset, but its got to be done.   Motherhood its a great joy and hardship all rolled into one.

Time to give Debbie a call and see if she is up for a trip to Macy's.

On to yet another adventure.... Here we go!!!

Been thinking the last couple of weeks, of getting my life back on  the right track.  After an emotional trauma that set the entire family off its kilter for two years, it finally feels like its time to live again.
So putting heartache on the back burner and having finally been able to put it into Allah's hands completely- I feel I have found myself again.  Definately tattered and torn, but I feel myself underneath what remains of this and my happiness occasionally comes peeking out.  Once I could finally feel some happiness, slowly I felt my soul emerging from the depths of despair.  Like a shy child or a timid animal, my happiness was scared, haunted and fearful of what was outside its hiding spot. 


See for almost 50 years my life has been one of happiness.  I was a person who was tremendously blessed by Allah with the gift of happiness.  I was happy as a child, and this got me through the High School years with no major problems.  I had a gift of finding joy and happiness in my world.  It was not until I was nearly 50 years old, that I was truly tested with a deep, hurtful experience that stunted my spirit for a very long time.  There were days I never thought I would survive and then slowly the pendalum started to swing, it took quite a bit of time but I  now feel myself again. 


 This is what has brought me to this blog, I feel the need to work out a few things for myself and my future. Its now time for me to search inside myself a bit more and find something rewarding.  This could  be a bit of a search but I am ready to start this journey.